Recently there is a NEWS that Deepika Podukone - A lovely actress suffering from mental illness. I had my first bout of depression at 19 (teenager) yrs old , I used to be lost in my life, nothing was understanding. Repeated failures in my personal & career were happening. I had never faced failures before. I lacked the strength in-tuned them. I used to be suicidal & thought of ending my problems but I failed to have the courage to try and do so. My overthinking was also harming me lots.
I hardly slept, wont to avoid people & failed to tell anyone since I feared being laughed at. I continued to FIGHT. But the harder I fought the more I struggled. My mind got the higher of me.
One day i made a decision I'll NOT struggle & FIGHT anymore. I began to stop bothering about results. Slowly things began to change. I used to be able to pop out of it.
My second bout of emotional disorder was a breakdown at 25 years old. My weight began to drop & it fell below 50 kgs. it absolutely was a relationship that didn't see. I didn't know the way to pander to it. I lost interest in everything. My work began to get impacted. I didn't understand how to return out of it. My emotions began to get the higher of me.
I decided to run away & take a FLIGHT. I found employment in another city & they sent me flight tickets. I ran away both from the town & therefore the situation. I had a secure landing in another city. Slowly my life began to come back to to normal. Yes sometimes taking a flight works.
My third bout of affective disorder happened at 35 years old because I began to open up my childhood issues in a very behavioural lab pass trained psychotherapists. My past trauma was an excessive amount of on behalf of me to revisit. I broke down again but the psychotherapists couldn't help me close my wounds.
This time I quickly rushed to a doctor and told him everything. He gave me anti depressants and within some weeks I slowly became normal.
I began to practise Neuro Linguistic Programming, began to journal & write, began to work on my self everyday. I also began to study psychology to grasp my issues & also started therapy & healing.
Thankfully, I've got come clean. It took me 14 long hours to return out of it.
There are days when my mind starts to require me back to those dark days but I recognise the devil within me from far even before it begins to seem. it's just like the sound of the pack of hyenas approaching their prey. you'll hear it from a distance.
